Friday, October 17, 2014

Phantom of Emotion

There was a girl who almost gave up
Waiting for someone who could offer love
Knowing that it’s impossible to find
Knowing that there’s no one else behind

Treated every man futile and treacherous
Heart’s cheater; she who suffered woes
She felt betrayed by all of her decisions
Unaided. Howling unto unreasonable mourns

But there was this man who came out of the blue  
Elucidated that life is beautiful, she regret to view
Made her believe in the charm of a second chance
Enfolded her care she never had even at once

He did nothing but made her feels special
In any way she never expected and desire
He showed her the love that is out of the ordinary
He did everything just to win her juvenile sympathy

From his eyes that tells different stories
Down to his heart that speaks without worries
She deems that this man is exceptional
Accept as true that this man deserves someone

Everytime she cries when everything turns her losing
This man always catches her and stops her from crying
His gentle words that make her feel at ease
Are words that would like to heed by her ears

Unintentionally she fell in love with this guy
A feeling she won’t ask for more or ask why
He who portrayed love not after the way she dream to be
Not gone for sweet kisses and mild embraces that is ordinary

Monday, September 26, 2011

Words Desire to Say

Seconds. Minutes. I remember
The way I look into your inner
Your deeds that imprisoned my pluck
Your laugh that stays in my part

Rode with that horse together
While taking this glowing thoroughfare
Played those childlike games
Fought those valiant names

I always remember the thing you’ve given me
Because of that, music lives with my soul entirely
Always caught ourselves laughing
Always chased our lips smiling

Did I say in front of you?
That I strongly love you
Maybe not, that’s why I feel this way
And heart is still in pain

In immediate, you’ve gone
While soul silently abscond
I don’t even heard you say goodbye
I don’t even told how much I mind

Four years ago when you left in grey
But I feel that it was just yesterday
Maybe I just still can’t accept the truth
That I was left in this world in cloak

Asking myself “where are you now”?
To look for you, I don’t know how
I want to embrace our memories
I want to clinch and won’t let you vanish

Now I’m craving to see you once more
Even in dreams I want you to stay on
So I could say what I wanted to say before
Without words, lolo, unto you I adore

I want you to know
I’m glad that I’m your apo
I hope you hear I say these words with hue
I won’t get weary to say how much I love you

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Yellow Umbrella

Was that the 14th day of February
To feel that hearts were floated utterly?

There is something in him I can’t figure out
Made me fall in just a shred of count

His sweetness really meant different to me

I was such unripe, just not like his maturity
I loved him more than just my existence
I loved him even the last slump of my patience

Now I feel the gentle breeze that pass

Kisses my face dressed with a mask
I know that heaven is going to weep
Like me when he started to bequeath

Before I was afraid to strike by heaven’s rip

But he will just sheathe me with his tight grip
He who used to feel me unscathed in his arms
Who I have let go and suddenly missed afterwards

Singing alone the songs we used to sing before

Looking to myself he used to stare before
Sitting alone where we used to sit together before
Walking alone in the road we used to walk together before

I have nobody to share my yellow umbrella with

Not engrossed for someone who will going to bid
When heaven grieves and starts to shed tears once more

When heaven screeches and dare me to reveal my core

Now I don’t mind if I get hit by its cruel tears

Heed nothing when he steadily moved and vanished
He stepped away and I stay here all alone
Must to cease this affection; then never moan

Now I feel the gentle breeze that pass

Kisses my face dressed with a mask
I reminisce of nothing when heaven’s tears go plethora

Summon up of nothing but my missing yellow umbrella

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Cage of Solitude

I am in the cage of solitude
I can’t breathe, I can’t move
I am alone and nobody hears
My screams, shouts and tears

I saw him walking away from me
I am confused, I feel empty
How will I get out of here?
How will I hold him near?

Out of the blue, he is gone
I can’t find him, I wish to run
I induce myself that he can still hear me
But stillness occur; tears flow suddenly

I am afraid to look at his eyes
Afraid that he cannot recognize
Would he still embrace me entirely?
Even the cage factually cuddles us awkwardly?

I want him to stay here beside me
But I don’t have the sovereignty
I want to keep him till the end
But the cage just hurt and stiff to mend

I am alone in the darkness of sorrow
I feel so useless that can’t face tomorrow
What would be the word more than forever?
That’s how long I want to keep him in my centre

I want to cry and let go the feeling
I want to shout and try to stop falling
But as long as I stop this affection
I gradually kill myself on my own 

How I wish I could still hold him
I love him even from daytime to dim
How I wish I could still grasp his face
That more often I would like to kiss

I can only wish that I’m beside him
I can only hope for the love I aim
 I’m still fasten with this cage of gutless
No rights for everything I know is priceless  

My heart beats only just his name
This kind of ardour exceedingly not a game
I hear nothing from him but his mirth
I saw him from a distance but lost so swift

I can’t envisage myself here alone in this cage
With just whit of light and gush me discourage
I know that he deserves to be happy
And yet, that happiness is not in me

There’s no other way to obliterate
The cage that made me inadequate
I can just keep an eye on his steps
Definitely better to kick the buckets

I have with nothing at this moment
He is gone and now I am despondent
Maybe this cage is in high spirits
Because I am left by my vehemence

Pitiful, pathetic and misfortune lass
Motionless in this burly cage of dusk
I’m still in the cage of solitude
When he left, I can’t breathe, I can’t move

It's Love

During the past of mine
I don’t know how to measure the time
Spending time with the one I really love
Coz’ I thought, I can love him more and for some

I adore him since we’re child
Coz’ my heart felt, he’s the prince I find
I don’t know if he already knew
That I longed loving him for years, that’s true

I am wondering if that’s only an infatuation
But how can I explain, he’s now my inspiration
Believe me; he inspired me for so long
That really made me brave and strong

When the time that he had been hurt
My prayers for him, I forgot to sort
Because of the overflowing tears
And ponderous, enormous fears

This lady thought God will get him
That’s for sure; my world be in dim
Coz’ that guy serving as my light
When the moment I won’t try to take a sight

If it’s only an infatuation of mine
My Lord, please give me a sign
If not, I’ll just going to ask
Full of concern, has been my task

Sanguine Ode of a Cynical Lass

You left; that was a year ago
Knowing no reason why but still, you go
I cannot coerce you to stay
You’re not blissful with me, what more can I say

Moving on is not that very easy
I cried since you left, that’s a melancholy
I have waited, if you’re going back
I’ve been longing for you; censure fact

Yes, that was a year ago
But still, I love you so
Seeing you with another girl
Is a feeling that I’m starting to fail

How I wish, I could be her
Someone now that you really care
You share the umbrella with
When raindrops underway to trip

But it won’t be the same feeling
You may leave me again lynching
I should admit the veracity
You’re just a part of yesterday’s fantasy

It’s tough to start another day
And saunter on an obscure way
But I need to carve another chapter
Another peak, just to make the story quiver

Heaven knows how much I loved you
But I just endured, if you only knew
Maybe you’re just deadened to do it
Or just taking pleasure of making me upset

Now, I may be brawny enough to carry on
And trouble-free now for me to go on
I deem that there is somebody in the future
Geared up to applaud me, I am very sure

I hope someday that he won’t be like you
Who made me sob, who don’t help me to grew
It’s just that we don’t justify each other’s loyalty
And you’re just a torn in my striking story

Past Whisperer

It is very ridiculous to reveal
Afterall what happened, I love you still
And it made my heart cry out
And a feeling inside of me wanted to shout

I admit, it hurts me when you did it once
But my heart melted with your simple glance
I’m afraid to let go of the past
For you are the reason why my heart beats fast

I always remember you when I hear our song
I know, loving you this way is very wrong
How will I give another chance for you
If there’s in my life, a somebody new

Even I’m with another guy
I was tricked when I used to lie
I proclaimed that I am over you
But why my heart want to pursue

Saying “I hate you” is only in my mind
My spirit taken away, that’s why I can’t find
Though you still have space in my heart
I and our memories need to settle apart


When you catch me looking at your eyes
Don’t say a thing, just wait for the sun to rise
I tried my best to ignore this
But in my heart, I don’t have the peace

I tried not to show my feeling
Loving you, I know, is the most stupid thing
I want to keep the friendship we have
You promised, nothing will just more than of that

Even you’re there, I felt I am a loner
If I admit, I know you’re going to leave me sooner
It’s very hard, but I sacrificed it all
So that in me, you’re not going to fall

I just want you to be happy
“Joy”, that’s all brought by your wanted lady
Even your happiness gives me pain
I’ll do everything, just to keep that promise remain


It’s stupidity if I still love you
Afterall what happened, look what you do
We know that we were not meant to
What is it in me if I just let you go

Now that I have somebody new
He’s my man, if you only knew
If you also had it, it’s not an argue
But how come letting me know, you pursue?

Do you want to hurt me that way?
I am not affected, I will always say
If you have somebody else, I’ll pray
Longed your companion not like ours yesterday

You don’t need to show me the reality
Coz’ I faced it when I set you free
I just don’t know if you really agree
Coz’ in times we meet, you looked guilty

Stupidity, yes it is
Stop that, I say it please
I know; our memories just made you miss
But I beg you, with my new one, give us the peace


You told me not to cry
It’s very hard for me to try
I cry because you give me reason to
I cry because of, no one else but you

Since you left me alone
I asked, what’s wrong for the I’d shown
Is there something for you to hate me?
Why you asked me to set you free?

Now, there’s no reason for me to stay
Nobody will catch me when I want to lay
All of the plans we made had faded
Now that we fall apart and not committed

There’s no reason now for me to hear our song
To do it is stupidity and perfectly wrong
I don’t have the reason to look forward
It’s very hard for me to let go, I’m a coward

But I need to accept the reality
We didn’t make it ‘til eternity
It’s time for another goodbye
I need to admit, I lost my guy

If letting you go brings you happiness
Don’t expect me to avoid loneliness
Then I have the reason to cry
You are the reason, I’m gaping, why?