Cage of Solitude

I am in the cage of solitude

I can’t breathe, I can’t move

I am alone and nobody hears

My screams, shouts and tears

I saw him walking away from me

I am confused, I feel empty

How will I get out of here?

How will I hold him near?

Out of the blue, he is gone

I can’t find him, I wish to run

I induce myself that he can still hear me

But stillness occur; tears flow suddenly

I am afraid to look at his eyes

Afraid that he cannot recognize

Would he still embrace me entirely?

Even the cage factually cuddles us awkwardly?

I want him to stay here beside me

But I don’t have the sovereignty

I want to keep him till the end

But the cage just hurt and stiff to mend

I am alone in the darkness of sorrow

I feel so useless that can’t face tomorrow

What would be the word more than forever?

That’s how long I want to keep him in my centre

I want to cry and let go the feeling

I want to shout and try to stop falling

But as long as I stop this affection

I gradually kill myself on my own 

How I wish I could still hold him

I love him even from daytime to dim

How I wish I could still grasp his face

That more often I would like to kiss

I can only wish that I’m beside him

I can only hope for the love I aim

 I’m still fasten with this cage of gutless

No rights for everything I know is priceless  

My heart beats only just his name

This kind of ardour exceedingly not a game

I hear nothing from him but his mirth

I saw him from a distance but lost so swift

I can’t envisage myself here alone in this cage

With just whit of light and gush me discourage

I know that he deserves to be happy

And yet, that happiness is not in me

There’s no other way to obliterate

The cage that made me inadequate

I can just keep an eye on his steps

Definitely better to kick the buckets

I have with nothing at this moment

He is gone and now I am despondent

Maybe this cage is in high spirits

Because I am left by my vehemence

Pitiful, pathetic and misfortune lass

Motionless in this burly cage of dusk

I’m still in the cage of solitude

When he left, I can’t breathe, I can’t move

It's Love

During the past of mine

I don’t know how to measure the time

Spending time with the one I really love

Coz’ I thought, I can love him more and for some

I adore him since we’re child

Coz’ my heart felt, he’s the prince I find

I don’t know if he already knew

That I longed loving him for years, that’s true

I am wondering if that’s only an infatuation

But how can I explain, he’s now my inspiration

Believe me; he inspired me for so long

That really made me brave and strong

When the time that he had been hurt

My prayers for him, I forgot to sort

Because of the overflowing tears

And ponderous, enormous fears

This lady thought God will get him

That’s for sure; my world be in dim

Coz’ that guy serving as my light

When the moment I won’t try to take a sight

If it’s only an infatuation of mine

My Lord, please give me a sign

If not, I’ll just going to ask

Full of concern, has been my task

Sanguine Ode of a Cynical Lass

You left; that was a year ago

Knowing no reason why but still, you go

I cannot coerce you to stay

You’re not blissful with me, what more can I say

Moving on is not that very easy

I cried since you left, that’s a melancholy

I have waited, if you’re going back

I’ve been longing for you; censure fact

Yes, that was a year ago

But still, I love you so

Seeing you with another girl

Is a feeling that I’m starting to fail

How I wish, I could be her

Someone now that you really care

You share the umbrella with

When raindrops underway to trip

But it won’t be the same feeling

You may leave me again lynching

I should admit the veracity

You’re just a part of yesterday’s fantasy

It’s tough to start another day

And saunter on an obscure way

But I need to carve another chapter

Another peak, just to make the story quiver

Heaven knows how much I loved you

But I just endured, if you only knew

Maybe you’re just deadened to do it

Or just taking pleasure of making me upset

Now, I may be brawny enough to carry on

And trouble-free now for me to go on

I deem that there is somebody in the future

Geared up to applaud me, I am very sure

I hope someday that he won’t be like you

Who made me sob, who don’t help me to grew

It’s just that we don’t justify each other’s loyalty

And you’re just a torn in my striking story

Past Whisperer

It is very ridiculous to reveal

Afterall what happened, I love you still

And it made my heart cry out

And a feeling inside of me wanted to shout

I admit, it hurts me when you did it once

But my heart melted with your simple glance

I’m afraid to let go of the past

For you are the reason why my heart beats fast

I always remember you when I hear our song

I know, loving you this way is very wrong

How will I give another chance for you

If there’s in my life, a somebody new

Even I’m with another guy

I was tricked when I used to lie

I proclaimed that I am over you

But why my heart want to pursue

Saying “I hate you” is only in my mind

My spirit taken away, that’s why I can’t find

Though you still have space in my heart

I and our memories need to settle apart

Promise

When you catch me looking at your eyes

Don’t say a thing, just wait for the sun to rise

I tried my best to ignore this

But in my heart, I don’t have the peace

I tried not to show my feeling

Loving you, I know, is the most stupid thing

I want to keep the friendship we have

You promised, nothing will just more than of that

Even you’re there, I felt I am a loner

If I admit, I know you’re going to leave me sooner

It’s very hard, but I sacrificed it all

So that in me, you’re not going to fall

I just want you to be happy

“Joy”, that’s all brought by your wanted lady

Even your happiness gives me pain

I’ll do everything, just to keep that promise remain

Stupidity

It’s stupidity if I still love you

Afterall what happened, look what you do

We know that we were not meant to

What is it in me if I just let you go

Now that I have somebody new

He’s my man, if you only knew

If you also had it, it’s not an argue

But how come letting me know, you pursue?

Do you want to hurt me that way?

I am not affected, I will always say

If you have somebody else, I’ll pray

Longed your companion not like ours yesterday

You don’t need to show me the reality

Coz’ I faced it when I set you free

I just don’t know if you really agree

Coz’ in times we meet, you looked guilty

Stupidity, yes it is

Stop that, I say it please

I know; our memories just made you miss

But I beg you, with my new one, give us the peace

"JS"

You told me not to cry

It’s very hard for me to try

I cry because you give me reason to

I cry because of, no one else but you

Since you left me alone

I asked, what’s wrong for the I’d shown

Is there something for you to hate me?

Why you asked me to set you free?

Now, there’s no reason for me to stay

Nobody will catch me when I want to lay

All of the plans we made had faded

Now that we fall apart and not committed

There’s no reason now for me to hear our song

To do it is stupidity and perfectly wrong

I don’t have the reason to look forward

It’s very hard for me to let go, I’m a coward

But I need to accept the reality

We didn’t make it ‘til eternity

It’s time for another goodbye

I need to admit, I lost my guy

If letting you go brings you happiness

Don’t expect me to avoid loneliness

Then I have the reason to cry

You are the reason, I’m gaping, why?

My Man

He is the man whom I want to be with

I assure, he is the man I certainly need

In every struggles, he is my protector

He is the man I’m fighting for

He is the knight in shining armor of mine

That’s why I feel so safe and fine

I am secured by my man

In times of pain, unto him, I run

Loving him will never be my regret

And doubtly, I own his respect

He is very meek when he speak

When he kisses me, I feel so weak

Beside him, I will not suffer

For me, he is my great lover

He catches me everytime I fall

He’s always ther when I try to call

Everytime he looks at me

My heart filled with felicity

When my man holds my hand

I will never find another in this land

He is the man who predicts our future

In burdens, together we’ll endure

He is the man who’s very solemn

When I cry, he’s there to condemn

Having him in my life is chimerical

And yet looks like so mythical

He is the man I ever dreamed for

He is the only one who stays in my core

Moon and the sun witnessed our story

Even breeze knows our guarantee

He is the man who takes his vow truthfully

And do his word artlessly

My Last Vow

You did a promise that you’ll never leave

They were colors in my heart that I really weave

But I prove that no promise can be done

If to your love, you are not the one

Thank you for everything you’ve done

Though we’re apart and you are gone

Thank you for the love you’ve shown

Though your heart now I can’t be own

I admit you’re the reason of my month’s tears

And might be the reason of my future’s fears

That’s why I wrote this poem for the last time

That I can dream that you would still my man

I will miss your confusing smiles

Your traits that captured by my eyes

I will remember you when I hear our song

I know, to forget you it might take long

And for my last vow I say this to you

All the love I had for you is true

You’re just my boy of yesterday

But you will never be my man of today

Falsa Sinceridad

You came into my life unexpectedly

And you filled my world with felicity

I didn’t envisage this way to ensue

Didn’t expect this kind of value

Grateful when you pass this way fortuitously

In this nameless place I strangely dally

Am I under your spell that makes me spellbind?

I can’t get out of this reverie you hurl behind

Seconds, minutes, and hours have outdid

I am keen on you oddly, seems not stupid

You mean the whole thing to me now

An angel that smiles so sweet, I vow

But the day had drawn closer

Something’s not in lovely matter

I had a feeling that you found somebody new

Afraid to lose you but what else can I do

I asked you to deal with this mess

And bestowed you all the chances

But I think, I loss this game

Disastrous to win your heart I aim

You told me that you still care

Didn’t mean to glimpse another girl

You fervour the two of us at the same time

Then what kind of feeling you like me to mime

I keep on loving you though it’s foolishness

Grant you time that you want even it is useless

Sacrifice the split seconds that you’re with her

It takes time before you come to be there

Alone. Crying at the corner

Only the breeze can hear my whisper

What I have done for you to do this

There’s no moment for us to seize

I can’t stand with this kind of ride

I love you but you’re not even at my side

Yes, you hold my hands with all your might

But also holding hers intensely and tight

I’m weedy to admit that we’re not meant to

All I know is that I extraordinarily loved you

But we cannot share with your one affection

I need to give you up while she’s holding on

It is very hard to own your playful heart

If somebody is wishing for the other part

I am yearning to win it but I am beaten easily

By your traitorous and faithless sincerity

Te Estaré Esperando

At the middle of the night

I only feel the gentle breeze that pass

I am prisoner of light

Killing time under the oblivious stars

I am the victim of my own crime

Antagonist of my own novel

Feel deadened like rime

Doubts of mine, I still remember 

Hit by this beyond belief emotion

Took my life then at once leave

How I wish I could still hold on

Even though I almost concede

Came by just to thump me

Starts with immense heaven

Acting as if it is endlessly

But happy when causing pain

I feel cheated when it discoloured

I feel worthless and nobody

Never come to realize that I’m abandoned

But it cannot feel my fury

Where am I suppose to tell

In the stars? Moon?  Breeze?

Feel like living in hell

Why this thing makes me seize

The stars are heavenly glowing

Like angels that sing lullaby

Never fade and continuously smiling

Chased by my humorous eye

How I fancy love is but the same

Keeps on singing, and free from pain

Neither gives anguish nor blame

Instead, hilarity and seventh heaven

How I wish love makes me believe

That it’s the sweetest sacrifice

That there is no throbbing to relieve

There is come back with the lies

The moon had sight his farewell 

Mist hugs me when he’s leaving

It’s the dawn and midnight’s dwell

Until he comes back, I’ll be waiting